-our difference-

our difference can be shown like this.

your a $50 and im just a 5c. 

i need 1000 of myself to be enuff for you.

you can get anything in a supermarket.

casinos will use you whereas im in the bus.

your're filled with colour unlike mine, silver grey.

you may split into multiple, i cant.

 im useless.

while you sleep, im still up blogging about nothing.

you can be happy alone, im alone even with a group.

i tell you heaps and hahaha is wat you reply.

-obsession-

I dont even know who am i anymore. Im soo lost. every night im just reading your name over and over again. seeing flashbacks of your smile time and time. wishing to see you again and again.. im too scard to talk to you.. the one, two word replies from you is seriously not a good feedback.. make me think that im not only boring but u cant even be bothered replying me. you're always online, and i have not dobt wanting to double click on ur icon and have a chat with you. somthing random, somthing happy, sad just wanna talk to you. however, i dont have anything to talk about anymore. this bitter feeling is getting stronger and stronger. in this visual technology i seem to know you very well, but in reality my acknowledgement towards you is less than 1%. i only can think of you as a whole physically but emotionally, i have no clue. the boundaries you had caused me not be able to have another glimpse of you nor ask 'how are you' verbally. that time when i was in your car, you maybe happy to see me but i know deep inside you all you ur feeling is 'uncomfortable' 'awkward'and 'afraid'. if i didnt say a word that time, i will predict that we are just gonna sit there and let the awkwardness arrive. when we use to talk everynight to like 3,4 am in the morning, i never thought life wud past soo fast when your happy. i really enjoyed those time. seeing you on cam is just enuff to revive my shitty days i have. however, after know the truth, i start to feel gapped away. and i know that im getting very boring.. i dont know wat to talk about anymore. i use to have soo much to tell you.. the moment just really feels like ur right next to me 'hearing' every single word i tell you. it died out. im cudbe just thinking too much. i cud be just fantasing all this and making a big deal out of this whole thing, but what else can i do? every night for a week now ive been have deep deep emo moments. even if i was very happy tlking to other friends, ill just die out. wat the fck is going on with myself..I do not love you that much ..im sure.. but you are just the reason why im feeling soo grey in my life.. or im just obsess in a way..

-n3w songs-

hmm, i kinda dont personally like T-ara when they debuted, but as new songs being promoted, im starting to drool over it ~~ each song is just.. see for yourself :L







Kara's comeback was also shocking. Their butt shaking/ body had already amazed me and now with their comeback.. seems like they have went another step futher~







lastly, we have our SNSD, which not much girls like them i dont no why xP oh well.. to me, they are always the best but i just rkn their latest comeback wasnt too good as i fort it wud be =/ other than that, i love their songs :)







and now i rkn t-ara wud recieve more fame~ but goo all 3 groups xP

-love love love-

some girl asked me to blog about love.. 

love can be a feeling, emotion, a level of relationship, sex, a name etc. or in a negative sense such as failure, nightmare;

for some, it could be a way of life and somthing to enjoy during life...

man how cud i put this.. love is too complicated for me to understand actually. unlike those other words out there love can be a solid, invisible, strong, weak, fluro~ ANYTHING..

to me, love is just curel xD

i mean comeon, it fked up my friend's life. it caused friend's parents having a divorce and very little time when love is worth it.

some quotes i've heard of 10 years ago cud be:
-marry me and ill start a family with  you in no time

-we can fight together and do our best to solve problems

-i love you.

-my parents will like you alot!

however, quotes ive heard recently:

-baby i love you forever.

-dont leave me honey, i cant live without you

-you make my dream come true

-i think about you everynight..

-etc i can go forever.

STOP FOR A SEC. ALL FKING FAIL!!

these stuff are like no longer strong and accurate anymore. even if u had those quote 10 years ago it wud atleast sound more convincable. even for the past 5 years.. when i started high school gosh... i didnt no SHIT all about love/relation/dating/breakup and sex. 5 years later, i see kids as small as my brother had already lost their fking virginity (and hey.. virginity was ment to be very important and somthing we all save it for later well atleast people around me back then were thinking the same.). Why is this world developing soo rapidly? right now, young generations are all about fame, appearance, sex and fighting (on the internet AKA KW's, keyboard warriors) all the things about wealth, education, dream job, starting a family etc. are all gone. i believe in the next 10 years or so, our world will be soo decomposed that the system of life would become born->education->work->death. life wud become black and white again.

anyways.. getting a bit off track xP.. personally, i dont believe in love anymore. back in grade 8, love was very somthing filled with mistery. people cud even die for it. but after several years of seeing, exploring AND expierencing this, i dont wan love anymore. it is not as fresh or how should i put it... important anymore.

for eg. i have friends that can start a relationship maybe last week, making it as if they are the happiest person on earth and blahhh.. doing dedication videos and all sort of shit... just fantastic. 1 week later it cud just become hell, emo, depressing all sorta stuff. and now i also picked up on somthing really funny yet, naive; they can break up for 1 or 2 days and get back together then another few weeks break up again.. (repeat itself forever) does love sound that weak how u can just break up and get back to it that easily? all those love you forever shit is just fake =/ i tell my friends that love is like a career now.. why do i say that because, we go to work - in this case whichi is love. we work soo hard for it and sex (reward) is wat we get. then after every weekend is holiday and thats when u guys have a break (breakup) then on monday you guys are back to work. just incredible haha.

i dont date. but i like to meet more friends. some may say im a flirt. but hey. im single and i know myself very well. i cannot stand love and i since im not in love i dont have to just concentrate on one right? up till now before you girls OR guys wanna bash me up lemmi say this:

"if you fall in love, then ur locked in a cage. u cannot escape, u lose your freedom. in someway love can also be paradise or heaven but not till later in life. right now, as love is not as mature, why not enjoy it rather than being used by it."

  

well thats how i live my life with regarding to love.

I cant say im a failure in love because i never tried it xP nor i wud say im expert in love cosh i never tired xD just yeh.. love is unpredictable and i would wanna see more examples of them before having one myself. and i mean most of the times the ones i got for does not think the same haha..

song of the day: Epik High - Love Love Love

mm this song reminds me of this girl i use to like in grade 9 xP 

weird thing is that when i liked her she likes this other dude and once i got over her she said she actually likes me more... 

-my friend-

her name is Jermaine she is like.. 3 years younger than me, met her for like a few months back in hong kong thru a really random outing.

Name: Jermaine Lau
DOdEATH!: feb 6, 1995
First impression: same age, very shy, misteriouos
After meeting impression: total opposite of wat i first thought about her.
Height: taller than me ... *curse you*

anyways.. so blahh we were out that night dinnering with other friends. she laughes alot at my lame jokes.. maybe shes lame aswell i dont know :S she only speaks english but apparently shes canto too.

shes very bossy. bullies me just cause im shorter than her. she has no life but to show off you her fat smile :) all she does is just fb, msn, music and do her stupid 'hwk' while being distracted by other things such as bfs, food, tv, gfs, magazine, makeup ETC.

shes kinda annoying but somtimes very good to talk to.. i lied if i cud describe her with 1 word ill go... gozilla. :P shes as angry as goz, as big as goz.. simply everything she does relates to gozilla but instead of a hero, shes a villain

i mean she even forces people. eg ME, to blog about her == i mean how cud i do that.. its soo hard promoting her in a good way. just like now, im sure after reading this she wud slice me up in 25 pieces. shes such a bully ==' fml..

i just wish i never have met her before in my damn life but since i have now, ill just have to face the truth and bear with it.

if i see you right now infront of my face i wud say: you better be appreciated cosh i spend soo much time making this post because thers just NOTHING interestsed about you!!! apart from ur height :)

Song of the Day: Vistlip - Ozone (yugioh thrid op)

ps: na 50% of the stuff i said up there is not true :) ur a cool friend~ just sometimes you smell.. buahahhaa xD dont kill me please..